Wednesday, June 18, 2008

M.I.A.

I've been absent from the blogging world for a few days - several days, actually. Where have I been, you ask? In a pit. A pit of worry and despair. Every day I've had to go back and read what I wrote last week. To try to find hope. And Satan has crept in every day and whispered lies to me, and played on my emotions, and lured me into that pit.

"For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against...the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms." Ephesians 6:12

I haven't been a very good mother, daughter, sister, friend, or me this past week. To all whom that has affected, I apologize. Instead of letting my faith be strong, I let my emotions affect my beliefs, then my actions, and I ended up a mess. I am ashamed that my faith wavered and that I cried out to God in anger and fear. But once again, my God has been faithful to me, and taught me valuable lessons about trusting Him.

"If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." James 1:5-8

We found a house to move into, and it is beautiful. We're signing all the papers tomorrow and it looks like we'll be moving July 12 - well before school starts, which is what we were concerned with. And while I always knew in my head that we were going to be OK, I now have the peace in my heart that that is true.

"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." John 8:32

7 comments:

D... said...

I'm very thankful that you have peace in your heart now.

Jenny 865-53oh9 said...

It's hard living in faith. I'm so glad you guys have found a home to move into and that you like it. Will the kids get to stay in the same school?

jennyonthespot said...

Yay :) I love that you shared verses as you walked us through this post.

Well Behaved Krissy said...

I'm glad you found a house. And its all going to work out great. No worries mate!

Bubba's Mom said...

I've been beside you every step of the way through this, so I can say a big "Amen"! He is faithful to those who love him.

cjh said...

Yea! Glad you found a place and with time to spare!

Misty Dawn said...

I am so glad and thankful to read this. I have been saying extra prayers for you since last week (I pray for you every night regardless...... and, yes, although I may not get a chance to comment until the weekend, I do read through your posts during the week nights). Yes, I'm here everyday - I may not get to comment, but I do read your posts (sometimes just from my Google reader) and I do feel your emotions and I do share in your hopes and prayers.

I luv ya B/S, and I am so thankful and happy for the way things turned out for you.